The Green In My Tea

Oh please shit!
Where should I begin? In '08?
This stretches back till then I'm afraid.
Okay so there is this boy (isn't there always?) that I went to the same school in 8th-9th grade. And I got my eyes up for him at the end of 2008. He is this adorable Christan kid that I have no chance on whatsoever. Mostly because I don't believe in marriage before sex (and I'm not really a virgin anymore) nor do I believe in God or a higher power of any sort (atheist for the win!)
But it all started when I was at my classmate's birthday party. And I got this connection with this boy named Adam.
And I thought he was hitting on me, and it was in a really cute charming way so I just fell head over heels in love with him.
He was quirky, funny, adorable and he liked me (back then I was a total shit mess)
And he still is those things!
I also tried to make him understand that I liked him in 9th grade... But the thing was... He had a girlfriend.
So I tried ignoring him instead because it hurt a little that he had a girlfriend and I thought that he had liked me.
It worked, for a little while at least until one day the train broke down on His station! And there he was! So we talked and talked and I got those feelings back again and it was wonderful and awful at the same time!
So I started hanging out in the music room because I knew he would be there (because he's a drummer, and that didn't stop my fantasies) and he... he made my feelings just flare up even more! He banged the drums whilst making really silly faces Towards me! And it made me laugh and my hear thump so hard...
And well.. so I decided to be mischievous when we had school pictures (we got to dress up as it was the last photo in that school).
I dressed up as a Maid... May I say I was quite hot actually! All the boys tried looking up my skirt! Awww! Cute!
But then as our first lesson approached I wanted to get the damned thing off! So I asked if someone could pull down my zipper and I was hanging out with Adam and Kareem by the toilets so Adam stepped up and did it. Then all I wanted to do was pull him in the bathroom with me. But I felt darn good that I got him to see me somewhat less clothed.
And also that he was the one who chose to take my clothes off (in some manner)
But when we graduated I hadn't met him for a long time until yesterday.
His band (The Green In My Tea, which includes him as the drummer, Kareem as lead guitarist, Pedram (another dude in my old class) as guitarist and two other dudes I've never met) was doing a Battle of the Bands (Emergenza festival), so I was there to support them and... I... you know... after two years I was still head over heels in love with the boy... he was single though this time but... I was too much of a chicken shit to do anything... I just stared.
But I gave him a hug when I was going to leave and he sounded sincerely sad when he asked if I was already leaving, which just made my feelings go right back where they didn't belong.
But now I won't see him again for a while. Which will make my feelings cool off! Thank god!
Because I am too much of a chicken shit to try and do anything.

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