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I always get a little depressed when I'm sick and reading something depressing just makes it worse. I just finished the third and last hunger games book; Mockingjay.
The ending is just so depressing. I wanted to cry within the 10 last pages. And how could she just... Katniss is somewhat of a robot depressing person. Her actions are at times so weird and robotic but at other times like at the hospital so dear and full of emotion. She is the weirdest character I've ever met. But I still felt a connection to her.
Is that weird? Kind of, I don't really see myself as robotic as she is. But I guess under those circumstances ...

Anyways, I suggest reading the trilogy, it's really good even though I didn't really like the ending; so emotionless and weird. She could've been more loving explaining the last part. It felt so emotionless, like she had no choice but to do what she did.
I won't spoil anything really, so it is a little cryptic what I'm writing haha.

But something good is I had a really good dream. Dreamt that Josh came to Sweden for my birthday and the first thing I did when I saw him was kiss him really lightly and he got really surprised. I was as happy as I could be and I was healthy (my sickness wasn't brought in the dream thank god).
What was weird though was that his height changed all the time throughout the dream, because my subconscious is unsure of how tall he is compared to me. So at times he was just mere centimeters taller than me, at others he was a head taller.
He was beautiful though nonetheless.
It was really lovey-dovey, no sex actually. Just pure happiness. Holding hands. Talking nonsense. A lot of kisses.
I cant wait till December when I fly down there. My mom and dad are coming with me, and they're also going to New York, and I'll stay behind in Florida for a couple of days more.
Except they haven't booked anything yet and I have. I'm staying for 9 days. 30th dec - 8th jan.
only 102 days left... sigh