Herpes
I have herpes. Not the STD kind, but I have it on my fucking finger.
Fucking guess how depressed I am.
Went to the doctors today to see what the hell it was that I had gotten on my finger, which was like covered in blisters that I had no idea where they'd come from.
I'm not on any antibiotics, she said it would pass by itself, and for the pain (because it hurts like a mosaukkra) she said I should put some bandage on it with my usual cream for eczema.
But I'm not allowed to be in the bakery because it's highly infectious.
So I have to stay home this week and hopefully it's passed until next week.
Also, what makes me even more depressed is that I told Josh about it and he joked about having Herpes too (which freaked me out because I though he was serious at first) and I don't know if he's disgusted by it or not, which I... I'm thinking into it too much but I can't help it.
I am seriously down.
Fucking herpes.
Fucking guess how depressed I am.
Went to the doctors today to see what the hell it was that I had gotten on my finger, which was like covered in blisters that I had no idea where they'd come from.
I'm not on any antibiotics, she said it would pass by itself, and for the pain (because it hurts like a mosaukkra) she said I should put some bandage on it with my usual cream for eczema.
But I'm not allowed to be in the bakery because it's highly infectious.
So I have to stay home this week and hopefully it's passed until next week.
Also, what makes me even more depressed is that I told Josh about it and he joked about having Herpes too (which freaked me out because I though he was serious at first) and I don't know if he's disgusted by it or not, which I... I'm thinking into it too much but I can't help it.
I am seriously down.
Fucking herpes.
In sickness and health
I always get a little depressed when I'm sick and reading something depressing just makes it worse. I just finished the third and last hunger games book; Mockingjay.
The ending is just so depressing. I wanted to cry within the 10 last pages. And how could she just... Katniss is somewhat of a robot depressing person. Her actions are at times so weird and robotic but at other times like at the hospital so dear and full of emotion. She is the weirdest character I've ever met. But I still felt a connection to her.
Is that weird? Kind of, I don't really see myself as robotic as she is. But I guess under those circumstances ...
Anyways, I suggest reading the trilogy, it's really good even though I didn't really like the ending; so emotionless and weird. She could've been more loving explaining the last part. It felt so emotionless, like she had no choice but to do what she did.
I won't spoil anything really, so it is a little cryptic what I'm writing haha.
But something good is I had a really good dream. Dreamt that Josh came to Sweden for my birthday and the first thing I did when I saw him was kiss him really lightly and he got really surprised. I was as happy as I could be and I was healthy (my sickness wasn't brought in the dream thank god).
What was weird though was that his height changed all the time throughout the dream, because my subconscious is unsure of how tall he is compared to me. So at times he was just mere centimeters taller than me, at others he was a head taller.
He was beautiful though nonetheless.
It was really lovey-dovey, no sex actually. Just pure happiness. Holding hands. Talking nonsense. A lot of kisses.
I cant wait till December when I fly down there. My mom and dad are coming with me, and they're also going to New York, and I'll stay behind in Florida for a couple of days more.
Except they haven't booked anything yet and I have. I'm staying for 9 days. 30th dec - 8th jan.
only 102 days left... sigh
The ending is just so depressing. I wanted to cry within the 10 last pages. And how could she just... Katniss is somewhat of a robot depressing person. Her actions are at times so weird and robotic but at other times like at the hospital so dear and full of emotion. She is the weirdest character I've ever met. But I still felt a connection to her.
Is that weird? Kind of, I don't really see myself as robotic as she is. But I guess under those circumstances ...
Anyways, I suggest reading the trilogy, it's really good even though I didn't really like the ending; so emotionless and weird. She could've been more loving explaining the last part. It felt so emotionless, like she had no choice but to do what she did.
I won't spoil anything really, so it is a little cryptic what I'm writing haha.
But something good is I had a really good dream. Dreamt that Josh came to Sweden for my birthday and the first thing I did when I saw him was kiss him really lightly and he got really surprised. I was as happy as I could be and I was healthy (my sickness wasn't brought in the dream thank god).
What was weird though was that his height changed all the time throughout the dream, because my subconscious is unsure of how tall he is compared to me. So at times he was just mere centimeters taller than me, at others he was a head taller.
He was beautiful though nonetheless.
It was really lovey-dovey, no sex actually. Just pure happiness. Holding hands. Talking nonsense. A lot of kisses.
I cant wait till December when I fly down there. My mom and dad are coming with me, and they're also going to New York, and I'll stay behind in Florida for a couple of days more.
Except they haven't booked anything yet and I have. I'm staying for 9 days. 30th dec - 8th jan.
only 102 days left... sigh
Pop-Punk
"i miss you all the time"
Words from a man I'm flying to in December. I have the ticket and the visa.
It'll probably be 9 days of just constant fucking.
I'm not really joking. Well okay maybe, he has to work too so, I'll have like 10 hours to kill each weekday. Have to start planning on what the hell I should do for those hours. The beach is pretty damn close so, some running would be good.
Anyways, I should go to sleep. I'm way tired and these flutters in my stomach is killing me haha
Words from a man I'm flying to in December. I have the ticket and the visa.
It'll probably be 9 days of just constant fucking.
I'm not really joking. Well okay maybe, he has to work too so, I'll have like 10 hours to kill each weekday. Have to start planning on what the hell I should do for those hours. The beach is pretty damn close so, some running would be good.
Anyways, I should go to sleep. I'm way tired and these flutters in my stomach is killing me haha
birds and the bees
Just got off skype with the Birdman. It was a very fun 3 ½ hour long video chat, the last 1 ½ consisting of very naughty things. (and it's not our first skype call, more like third haha, the 2 first were all innocent)
I couldn't help it! So don't judge! Nor say you shouldn't do things like that!
But I trust him. He's... well, irresistible.
And I didn't show my private lady part. Just boobs and I had a cover over the uh.. nasty haha.
He didn't cover though. Three times.
It was a really fun experience, even though I didn't come (I'm sitting here with a bit of blue balls) it felt really good and he did too.
Can't wait til I go there. 3 days of just lovemaking haha. Those are his words, not mine!
I should go to bed, but my stomach is full of butterflies. I can actually say that I am in love with him.
I would never do such a thing with anyone else.
I need to buy a ticket to Florida asap!
But now, bed time!
I couldn't help it! So don't judge! Nor say you shouldn't do things like that!
But I trust him. He's... well, irresistible.
And I didn't show my private lady part. Just boobs and I had a cover over the uh.. nasty haha.
He didn't cover though. Three times.
It was a really fun experience, even though I didn't come (I'm sitting here with a bit of blue balls) it felt really good and he did too.
Can't wait til I go there. 3 days of just lovemaking haha. Those are his words, not mine!
I should go to bed, but my stomach is full of butterflies. I can actually say that I am in love with him.
I would never do such a thing with anyone else.
I need to buy a ticket to Florida asap!
But now, bed time!
